I'm late daily becuase it proves to me that I am unworthy of a good job and that I'm a piece of crap.
My difficulty in handling stress is a catalyst and another reason for all of the above and is partly caused by my own believe in my inabilities.
I tell people what to do because either they are wrong, or I am wrong. There are not any other possibilities. If I am wrong, I'm a piece of shit, so they must be wrong because I can't be a piece of shit all of the time.
these are my neuroses
Today they won't hide from me, and it will be a difficult day as I feel like shit all day.
I need to find a way to deal with this rather than just disbelieving it and going along.
I want to hide.
This has been a recording.